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Things I Never Expected at Age 23.

Hello all!It's been a while since I last posted. A lot and I mean a lot of things have happened in my life. I never imagined that I would end up in a five car pile up on vacation just several months ago. My car was totaled of course.It was while I was at a weekend long concert and everything bad that could happen did happen. It rained horribly. My hotel wasn't properly booked. We almost forgot the tickets and the concert was two hours away from home. I never got to eat at my favorite restaurants there because the accident happened on the way to the restaurant. Sigh. It was a very crazy part of my life.And then the bigs new happened...I became pregnant shortly after that vacation. I never knew if I wanted kids but I thought I'd have them later in life. At first I was scared. Then I started to realize I'm at one of the better parts of my life. I have stable income. I'm with my loving significant other and have been for nine years. It's become a blessing. And I…

Anorexia Recovery: Quesadillas

Hello all!I'm currently on my lunch break at work and it's making me think about the first time I tried to recover from my anorexia a few years ago.I don't know about you but I'm always reaching for the same food. I think it's more or less for simplicity more than anything. Food is such a big trigger in my anxiety so I do my best to keep that anxiety as low as possible.A few of the foods I used to eat on a daily basis were buttered noodles, quesadillas, pasta salad, chili, and hot chocolate. Sometimes I wonder if I over did it because I'll go back to eat those things and after only a few bites, I just end up not being able to finish my food. Now I'm not sure if it's in my head or am I really not enjoying the food like I used to.It's really frustrating cause my appetite has become super picky with anorexia. Very few foods truly appeal to me and even then I might not enjoy it the next day. It sucks cause I know I need to just suck it up and eat, but h…

A Journey of Anxiety in a Young Author

Hello again!

It's nice to be using my blog again. I know I've fallen off this blog here and there, and I know I can't keep letting myself do it. I always have excuses because of my life and what's going on in my life, but if I let those excuses control me, my life will just keep flying by in a busy blur. And busy blur weeks turn into busy blur months and then busy blur years. Nobody wants that kind of life.
Now that I'm getting back to my blog, I've gone back to look at some of my post, and all those posts make me want to do is slink back into my chair and shut the computer. Man was I young and naive when I wrote those posts, but whether those posts are mistakes or dumb, they're me. It's not like I'm going to delete them now because there's no point. Everyone has to start from somewhere.
The same thing goes for my writing. Every once in a while I'll open an old file of one of my earlier works, and I can't help but laugh! Oh my, the writing …

Anorexic in Recovery: Food is Stressful!

Hello, world!
Another year has gone by. Some good things have happened, including moving out of my parent's house. (Finally!) Also being at my highest weight I've been at. Some not so good things have happened as well, which include my anorexia having me go around in circles. My daytime job has also made me want to pull out my hair. Which I know happens to a lot of people. That's life.
Currently I'm suffering from a cold which made it impossible to taste anything the past two days. Curse you stuffy nose! It wasn't fun at all. I barely ate at all yesterday cause I was so nauseous, and then I ended up with a splitting headache that left me on the couch all Saturday long. Kinda sucks considering I actually wanted to enjoy my weekend, but it is what it is.
Today I'm finally able to breathe out of my nose. Hooray! And I'm able to finally taste things, which has brought up my thoughts on what I really wanted to discuss all along. Food is stressful.
For the past few m…