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Confessions of an Aspiring Author

Lately, I've been feeling pretty down. All I ever think about is becoming an author, but I'm afraid that my work won't live up to the standards I've set for myself. I have no other goals to accomplish. Only becoming an author. I did not go to college because I have no want/reason. If I went, I'd cause myself a load of depression that's un-needed.

I currently work at a movie theatre, but I feel like it takes up all my time. And customers are absolutely horrid. They're so rude, and I just can't handle it anymore. Plus, I know that if I continue working there, it won't get me anywhere in life. But if I quit, I'll have no job and my parents will flip.

I'd love to just focus on writing, especially if I get an agent, but even if that happens, I'm afraid things won't turn out as expected. That means I'd have to keep my job.

All these thoughts spin me into a whirl of depression, and I can't figure out how to get myself out.

I just wish I…

Healing Cavities: Is it possible?

Does it bother anyone else when the world says its impossible to heal cavities? I mean, we can heal every other part of our bodies, including bones, yet teeth cannot be saved?

But when we go to the dentist, all they want is our money, and if you even dare question them, they get very angry with you (and unprofessional!) and tell you there is no other way.

I smell something fishy with this situation. Someone telling me I can't possibly heal my own body. I mean drilling and filling your teeth only covers up the problem. It doesn't fix it.

And when your in my situation, where 6 of your teeth are beginning to decay, it makes you wonder why this is possible. If dental hygeine is at its best in this current day and age, then why are our teeth getting worse? If flouride is so damn spectacular, then why don't our teeth stay the same?

Obviously there's something we aren't being taught.

And that word is remineralization.

Our teeth are composed of minerals and vitamins.

When our bod…

The Writing Process: Critique Partners

Hello, my fellow bloggers!

So I've realized lately that I talk too much about health and not enough about my biggest passion: writing. It's my life, literally. Writing saved my life when I went through the worst times of my life, namely high school, and I believe I should talk about more writing more.

Now, it sounds easy to write a book, right? All you need is a computer, a word processor, and an idea. And bam, just write! Hell, I wish it was that easy.

I mean, hell, writing is easy. It takes a long time, but writing all your feelings out through a fictional world brings a type of satisfaction you can't find anywhere else. You find yourself immersed in a world you thought not possible, with characters that don't even exist, yet those characters are your life.

Your characters shouldn't really resemble you, and most of the time they don't resemble their authors. But deep down inside, us authors know our characters are based off us. It's true. Without our life exp…

New Goal: Eating Better

I have a new goal for myself. Well, actually, it's not really a new goal. It's a goal I've been too lazy to take on. And that's for getting myself to eat better. Meaning more whole foods, less dairy and processed junk.

I can visualize the whole process. It seems so easy. Until the new day comes, and I still haven't completed my goal.

I mean, it's hard when I don't have my own place, so I'm tempted with taking the easy way out. Plus our fridge is too full, so I just get angry when I look inside. If I had my own place, with all my own vegan food, I could totally accomplish being a vegan and gaining weight.

It's not impossible. It's just difficult when I'm stuck in depression. Yeah, it's not an excuse for poor eating, but my mental state is just wonky. Cause every single time I try, something always goes wrong.

Like for today, I tried to make myself some lentil baked beans (completely vegan). I followed the instructions and everything, and it t…

Depression Takes Anyone.

No matter who you are, what you are, how much money you make, how popular you are, what ethnicity, sexuality, etc. Depression could give two sh!ts about that.

I should know. I am one of those people plagued by it. And it's not fun. And it's not easy.

It comes and goes without warning. Some days I wake up happy. Others I just want to lay in bed all day.

It all started last year when some personal things in my life went haywire. I couldn't get a grip on life because everything I once had was crumbling.

But without this crippling depression, I would've never wrote my novel. It's the best thing that's ever happened to me.

But that also brings the worst out of me. Because I've realized I want nothing more than to become an author. I have no other dreams or aspirations other than to write endlessly for my life. It's what I love more than anything, and it makes me feel so alive.

Publishing it is another story. It's a hard process. There's queries, synopsis, …

Deoderant: Aluminum & Chemicals Lurk in White

Here's another, "What's in your beauty products?" post.

Today's topic: Deoderant.

Now with this topic, I have personal experience with why your commercial deoderant is toxic.

But let me start from the beginning.

Now, I know it's not our faults that we choose to be ignorant to the world around us. Hell, we were trained through school to not question what we were told. They said, "Here you go. You must wear deoderant to not stink." Well, maybe not our school. But our school system does train us to not question what we're taught. Because pharmaceutical companies would never "lie" to you. Everyone is on your side. Right?

Or are they on your money's side? You know. Feeding you things that aren't good for you so that later on in life you must turn to the pharmaceutical company for help when your body starts detiorating.

That's an extremely uncommon way of thinking. But does this get those dusty gears in your head clicking, if only a li…

Brittle Nails: Nail Polish & Chemicals

Do you ever wonder why your nails are so brittle? They seem to break on everything. Get caught on your shirt or in your hair. Then you have to cut your nails yet again.

But it makes no sense. How do my nails get so weak?

Well, let's think about this for a minute. Do you wear nail polish quite often?

I'm guessing that's a yes because that's the main reason you're here, isn't it?

Well, let me tell you something. Many chemicals lurk in that little glass of nail polish. Many different ones for various reasons.

Like that special, "It dries it 60 seconds" Well, they forgot the "due to chemicals"

Isn't that so special after all? You're sacrificing your beauty for chemicals. YAY.

But my nail polish says toxic-free? Is this what you're saying?

Well, do you truly understand what toxic-free means. Void of all chemicals and toxins.

But I'm guessing you don't know each chemical and toxin by heart? So how do you know it's completely toxin f…

My Dream Life: Becoming an Author

So, as more and more of you read my blog, I'd like you to get to know me as more than just that girl who writes about acne and rosacea. I also have an inner desire to become an author.

I've actually been writing for about four years now, and I've developed 2 stories and 2 unfinished stories.

Out of the four, I have one that I am absolutely in love with, and I somehow want to make this blog about me and about my writing as well. And of course, my endless rants. Which I'm known for in real life.

I'm sorta stumped on how to go about this though.

Maybe I should post more writing related stuff, as well as my knowledge on life.

And I'm going to change up my blog somewhat too because its layout isn't as perfect as I want.

If I ever succed in becoming a published author, I want this blog to look as nice as possible and to show my true self. I'm never going to hold back from my readers.

Maybe it'll be the best of both worlds. An author who doesn't like to hold …

Rosacea & Acne: The All Natural Face

Since I last posted about make-up, I thought I'd share my lovely source of all natural makeup to everyone.

No, they did not tell me to review them. I am doing this by my own will, and they honestly have no clue I am.

I found Crystal through Etsy, a lovely site filled of people with honest talents. She introduced her make-up as all-natural and vegan. Now that to me is my kind of make-up. Something that doesn't harm my skin nor innocent animals? I'm in.

She has all types of stuff. Everything from foundation, concelear, eye shadows, eye liners, facial products, and even all-natural henna hair dye.

Her website is:

The site is presented beautifully. They even give you a little tidbit about toxins:
"Your body absorbs 65% of the chemicals you apply to it. Those chemicals go directly into your bloodstream. The average woman is exposed to over 100 chemicals before breakfast! How scary is that! The least anyone can do for themselves is to sto…

Acne & Rosacea: Make-up

Make-up is obviously an important part of a girl's life. More than it should be, but when we have horrible skin, we can't help but cover it up.

And most of the time, we cover it up with toxinous filled chemically bathed powders. I honestly believe this is the main contributor to acne. It's absorbed right through your pores and into your skin. And your skin does not want it there, so it tries to push it back out in the form of acne.

Now just like your facial cleanser, do you understand what's in your commercial make-up? Can you read what's in the ingredients?

Seriously, go look while I wait here. I'm curious to know whether you know all the ingredients or not.

Are you done? Have you read the entire list? Now tell me: Do you know what's in your make-up.

Oh, you don't. Why not? Your putting it on your skin. Shouldn't you at least know what's going on your skin?

Well, you're not alone because many girls and grown women do the same thing. And it's …