Lately, I've been feeling pretty down. All I ever think about is becoming an author, but I'm afraid that my work won't live up to the standards I've set for myself. I have no other goals to accomplish. Only becoming an author. I did not go to college because I have no want/reason. If I went, I'd cause myself a load of depression that's un-needed.
I currently work at a movie theatre, but I feel like it takes up all my time. And customers are absolutely horrid. They're so rude, and I just can't handle it anymore. Plus, I know that if I continue working there, it won't get me anywhere in life. But if I quit, I'll have no job and my parents will flip.
I'd love to just focus on writing, especially if I get an agent, but even if that happens, I'm afraid things won't turn out as expected. That means I'd have to keep my job.
All these thoughts spin me into a whirl of depression, and I can't figure out how to get myself out.
I just wish I could do what I wanted to do. If I snag an agent, I would for sure quit the movie theatre because an author career could take me higher places if I work hard enough for it.