Sunday, March 8, 2015

Ulcers, Painkillers, & PMS

Hey everyone! (Warning long post ahead!)

So I know you may wonder why I drop off the face of the planet for a few months and then reappear only to disappear again. If you've read any of my posts, you will know that I suffer a lot of health problems. Kinda sucks since I'm so young! But I guess poor eating habits will get anyone.

I just wanted to finally explain what is exactly wrong with me, and why I drop off this blog for months. I feel like you guys need an explanation.

Obviously for years I've been trying to figure out what's wrong with me. I suffer from digestive issues that make it very very hard for me to gain weight (I'm borderline underweight). I always thought I was crazy half the time as I grew up, that maybe I just wasn't meant to gain weight.

I started suffering from rosacea about 6 years ago and along with that came the awful PMS. And I mean, God awful. My periods often put me in the worst misery to the point where I cry for three hours on the first day. It's not fun, not at all. I do, however, know what's causing it so I will get to that soon enough.

But when I started getting those awful cramps, the only way I could deal with them would be to take painkillers. I mean, I would miss school once a month if I didn't so I felt like I had no choice. Well, bad for me, nobody ever told me to NOT take painkillers on an empty stomach! And usually I'd end up taking them in the mornings when my appetite was at its lowest.

Fast forward four years later, these painkillers ended up ruining my stomach lining. I have developed ulcers as a result of taking painkillers so stupidly. But don't take this as a "I won't get ulcers if I don't take painkillers on an empty stomach" because that's not true either. They can and will cause ulcers. You just won't get them as easily if they're taken with food.

How did I know I had an ulcer? I didn't. Not for almost three years. I would research and research day after day trying to figure out what the hell was wrong with me. Why didn't I go to a doctor? Because doctors have never listened to me, and I knew they'd just prescribe me with medications that would only cover the problem instead of fixing them. (The pharmaceutical business would be out of business if they cured your problems.)

So every day, I would suffer God awful burning pains in my stomach to the point where I couldn't eat all day. Which would make it all the worse because then my stomach acid would churn even harder because I wasn't eating nearly enough. Not fun guys. Not fun at all. It was the most vicious cycle I've ever been through.

And then I learned my ulcer(s) were bleeding. I wasn't sure about it at first because usually most people identify blood in their stools as red or black. I never had that happen to me, but I did have coffee ground looking things in mine which I could never find answers to. That is until I learned that if blood mixs with stomach acid that it will turn into what looks like coffee grounds.

You could only imagine how low of an iron count I must've had. And to make matters worse, I think my PMS pains started because I got super low on iron. That's the only conclusion I've ever been able to make. Because when I suffer those awful pains every month, they are the exact symptoms of iron anemia.

I've been living in one big vicious cycle all my life, and it took me this long to figure it out.

I'm now trying my best to correct my diet and use supplements to my advantage in order to heal this ulcer. Along with that, I am doing my best to keep my iron levels up.

It's been one long rough road, and I hope to see a light at the end.

I'll also be querying my novel (hopefully) this month, so who knows. Maybe this will be the year my life turns around, and I can finally feel happy.

So now you know why I disappear and hopefully I will keep you guys updated more. Both on my writing adventures and my health.

Thanks for reading through this and understanding.

Friday, December 5, 2014

Promoting Friday: WillowTreeMinerals

Taken from the Etsy Shop: Willow Tree Minerals. I do not own the rights to it, but I am promoting it. (Non paid)

Hello guys and gals! I'm deciding to promote others on Fridays now, and I thought a good way to start it off is by promoting people I buy from online.

My most favorite of all websites to buy from is Etsy, and most people on there like to create wholesome good products from non-toxic ingredients.

If most of you are like me, you are especially cautious about the products you use on your skin. I mean, our skin is our larget organ after all. So why shouldn't you take caution?

That's why I always buy vegan/natural make-up. That way I know it's not being tested on animals or will be harmful to my skin, especially since I battle acne rosacea.

So here it is, a wonderful etsy shop that sells makeup for a decent price and isn't bad for you! Yay!

Willow Tree Minerals Etsy Shop

I've ordered from Lora quite a few times, and the products are always wonderful. I've ordered foundation, eyeliner, mascara, and just the other day I bought nail polish.

This shop is wonderful, and I hope you support her and your skin. Thanks for visiting my post! I'll do another promotion post next Friday!

P.S. And if by chance this is Lora reading, thank you for making such wonderful products. I will always be a customer of yours.

Wednesday, December 3, 2014

Inspiration Wednesday

So I've decided to go back to my roots and post quotes on Wednesdays again. I just feel like quotes make the world go round, don't you?

Here's my latest favorite quote:

Time is a tree (this life one leaf)
but love is the sky and I am for you
just so long and long enough 
-E.E. Cummings 

Isn't it beautiful?

Have a wonderful Wednesday!

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

My New Year's Resolution

I know that I haven't been keeping up with this blog much, and I keep changing my mind on what I should focus on. But now that a new year is coming up, and my desire to be an author grows every year. I've decided that I need to make huge changes with my life.

First of all, I really need to keep on this blog and on Twitter. You guys are my only hope of my dreams succeeding, so I need to keep promises to you guys.

Second of all, I really need to pick a damn title for this blog and stick with it. Seriously. First I just wanted to write about my journey to becoming a published author. Then I wanted to write about my health journey. Maybe I should just do both.

So that means I'll be making big changes to this blog, and doing my best to keep up with it. I know I've failed at this in the past, but I need to change and I need it now.

Hopefully you'll keep up with me, and we can share our victories as we go along in this world.

Thursday, August 28, 2014

Gaining Weight: Eat, Eat, and Eat!

Hello, my fellow bloggers!

As some of you may know, I struggle a lot with gaining weight. But slowly and surely I've gained about 6 pounds over the past few months. Finally!

So what's my secret? Eat. Eat. and Eat. and Eat some more.

I know what you're saying. "But I already eat enough!" or "I can't eat anymore." or "It's just too hard."

Well then you might as well call it quits cause you'll never gain any weight with that attitude.

Trust me, I've been in your spot. I've made all the excuses, including "I think I have food allergies." or "Something is wrong with me."

If your stomach literally hurts throughout the day, aching and gnawing. Ask yourself, "Have I eaten anything?" If you haven't, then eat! That's your stomach tossing and churning it's acid, and it will make you sick. Really sick to your stomach. I've been there, and I won't go back.

I know you're still saying, but I eat so much food. But do you really? I used to think I ate "so" much food, but then I started really watching my food intake. It was way too low. If you are consuming below 2k calories, please freaking eat something!

I know it's hard, but do you want your body to deteriorate because you're starving yourself? It's not good for you. It does awful things for your body. I already have bad joints, and I'm only 19. It's because I starved myself of the nutrients I needed growing up.

If you aren't eating 2k calories a day, you need to start eating more. Stop making excuses for yourself. Do you really want to continue looking like skin and bones? Or do you want muscles and curves? You can't obtain it unless you eat more.

Don't start eating more all at once. Don't risk hurting your body. Slowly add more calories week after week until your stomach can catch up with it.

Trust me, all it takes is eating more. Don't shame yourself for eating a candy bar or even a milkshake. Your body needs something, literally anything to keep it from failing.